We've probably all seen those shirts or memes that say things like, "I can't adult today" or "I don't want to adult today, who let me adult?" I've had one of those weeks. With depression, I think I go through phases (or maybe I'm bipolar?!) where I'm doing good for a while and then it hits me like crashing waves and I don't want to do anything. I don't want to be around people, I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to cook, I don't want to run, I don't want to write (I don't want to mom, but we're not supposed to say that one, right?). I just want to sleep and read and watch Netflix.
I was doing so good last week. Our meal planning was going well, the house was clean almost every day last week, I did at least one load of laundry every day, we got out of the house a few times. Then it just crept up.
I can blame it on a lot of things this time. I haven't been eating well and I know from my 21 Day Sugar Detox and Whole30 experiences that my sugar consumption affects my mood. I haven't been sleeping as much as I should, and I haven't been getting up early to run like I should. It's all this circle that feeds on itself. Eating sugar makes me feel bad, when I feel bad I want to eat sugar. When I'm tired I make bad food decisions and I'm less likely to go to bed on time. I go to bed too late and then can't get up to run, then I run later and have to wind down afterwards so I end up staying up later. Ugh.
It could also be blamed on a new Sunday school class I joined at church this past Sunday. It's based on The Armor of God by